Write it down. Your goals, your dreams your accomplishments.

So they say that you should write your goals down and tell people because THEN you'll most likely accomplish your goal. It's true, ya know. For example, write down that you want to loss X amount of weight, I did it! I told everyone that I wanted to run in a races starting with small 5k's to 10 milers and I did it! I told everyone that I wanted and could do Triathlon, the look on peoples faces was priceless but I did it! Then comes wanting to do my first marathon and I did that! When it comes to CFW I said that I wanted to be able to do push ups and now I can, not a TON but that's not the point, it's something to improve. I've wanted to do pull ups and now I can and slowing moving through that assistance bands. This stuff isn't easy people! It hurts, it's frustrating, blood sweat and tears, sometime more tears and pain but if you'd ask me if it's worth it I'd say TOTALLY WORTH IT!! It take time and rest when you don't want to rest, sometimes I think that I need more rest than others but that's what works for me. I'm not always positive and sometimes needs a sanity check from my wonderful friends, new and old, the more tired I get the more help I need I've noticed. So have I struggled? Yes! But I've written most everything down or told some one no matter how crazy they may think I am. I wont ever be the fastest but I'll be damned if I'm going to quit, I'll finish!

 My goals now have changed a little bit (or have they). This year I want to get more toned up, I want to get my nutrition right and get faster and tackle new and existing fears. Seems like I've been trying to work on the for years but this year I will get better. I can control this part of my life, I'd like to find the right person to marry too but I can't control that now can I, THIS; training, my body, myself, I CAN control. I wouldn't say that I'm a control freak BUT....hmmm well I like to be in control :-) Don't you? I want my arm to get better, it's a SLLLOOWWWW process and incredibly frustrating but it's nothing that I can't accomplish and work through. Do you ever wonder sometimes why you can't listen to yourself and take your OWN advice when you'd down and pissed off? Sometimes you just have to take the weekend off and decompress and start fresh and strong on Monday, this was my weekend off, even though I have a marathon in two weeks, sounds like a good time to recover and decompress before the big race.


So how am I going to get better? By getting enough rest and recovery, by doing CFW, by going to my Triathlon team training, but surrounding myself with athletes, the healthy community and by meeting new people and by having fun. To stop worrying about the small stuff, stop being sad with what I don't have or have lost. Start looking at what I do have and how far I have come and to the people that I have lost, well to the people that I have lost, I think that they would be proud of me too, and/or kicking themselves for losing me :-)


It's true, my confidence in myself has soared, sometimes it sounds cocky but I am damn proud of myself and sometimes I want to celebrate that. For those of you who know me know that I haven't always felt so good about myself so a little bit of cocky-ness, ah, no big deal. Because sometimes I'm not so happy with myself and that feeling sucks, sometime I have to lift myself up. I've worked damn hard for this body and it's not my problem if others take my comments the wrong way.


After this paleo challenge I'm going to keep this blog, just change the name if I can. This blag can help me, and maybe even help others. I like to read the comments left by friends and share my stories. If I type it or write it down I'll accomplish it, or I'm more likely to accomplish it :-)


**And now for the big news. Saturday morning I signed up for my first Half Ironman Triathlon that will take place in up state NY on July 11th.